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[newsong]

My husband died in an accident almost twenty years ago when I was 35 and he had just turned 40. The following years were an emotional roller coaster raising kids and trying to stay afloat. I think that the breakthrough for me was when I realized that he is gone but will always be a part of my life through my kids, the music he played, pictures, humour, memories - and the fact that he loved his family unconditionally. I also realized how blessed I was to have a man love me as he did, since many people who end up divorced query if their spouse ever did love them. I know a woman who was married for more than 30 years and her husband never once told her he loved her. Grief is probably the most difficult emotion of all, and there is no way of avoiding it. I have found much joy in creative endeavours, have not remarried, and just keep hoping that the right person still might come along. I have learned that our hearts can be filled with love, friendship, compassion and service to others even if we are alone.

[Britta123]

My husband died about ten years ago from smoking. I was taking him to the hospital and he died in the car beside me. I was devastated for years and decided I would just stay home, and find something to do, like gardening, painting the house etc. My heart was broken. I found it very difficult to even look at his chair. He was full of life but I knew he would die from smoking.
A few years after he died I joined a dating agency, and found a great partner/friend, and had a wonderful time with him. Believe it or not, he died last April from the effects of smoking. He had given them up 11 yrs ago but the damage was done. I miss him so much, and at my age, I have given up trying to find a partner. It was all I ever wanted really but never happened. My first husband, whom I married when I was 27, went off with other women. I like to communicate with people and dont like the idea of giving up on life.