Losing someone or something you love is very painful. After a significant loss, we all experience all kinds of difficult and surprising emotions, such as shock, anger, and guilt. While these feelings can be frightening and overwhelming, they are normal reactions to our loss. We have to learn to accept them as part of our grieving process and allowing our self to feel what we feel is necessary for our healing. Grief is unique, complex, and personal to each one of us. The whole grieving process as a roller coaster, full of ups and downs, highs and lows. Like many roller coasters, the ride tends to be rougher in the beginning, the lows may be deeper and longer.
Maggie, nothing can take the love that you and your son shared. I know that grief like this never ends because he was someone that you loved. May God give you the grace to accept the things that happened and the Serenity to carry on living.
Take care of yourself
Love and hugs xx