People tell you to "let it go" "move on" "let go of the past" etc etc as if it is as easy as flicking a switch. It isn't that simple. I am doing my best to get on with things but added burdens and unhelpful comments and people trying to tell me what to do and how to do it don't help. I am so tired of all the cliches and platitudes that have been thrown at me. They don't help. There are some who seem to think I should just be over the rotten things that have happened, and that since a death has occurred it is all done and should be forgotten. I can't and won't forget. I need to remember and I need to cry and I need to talk about him and about it and have people listen and care and not dismiss it like it's nothing. I loved him and he loved me and we planned a life together. As it was we had limited time because of government rules. Now he is gone and I miss him and I feel very lost, alone and afraid of now and the future. I gave up everything to be with him and now have no job, no home of my own and no relationship. I have to get a job, which I really don't want to do but have no choice. I don't know what to do or how to do it. I am so afraid and anxious.