Ginny, you really touched on some good points. A lot of what you've written applies to my own 'journey' of living single and my time trying to adjust to an entirely different lifestyle. I just want to highlight a few things you said, and elaborate just a bit for my own comparison as to how we all deal differently with essentially the same experience.
ginny8 wrote: we all need that connection...even though it is scary for a lot of us...feeling vulnerable is so hard to overcome
This was the most surreal aspect I think I have ever experienced in my lifetime. We were together almost every hour of the day for 15 years, talked constantly, and basically did everything together. It's hard for me as I write this to remember a time when we weren't within earshot away from one another.
And in one night my entire world had completely changed. I was totally alone.
As the days slowly slid by, I started to notice how quiet my world became. Not only in the house, but everywhere I went. Working from home for over a decade, I had lost track of almost everyone I knew. With the exception of my children being in my home, my whole existence became silent. I started noticing the sound of the wind blowing through the trees, the sound of every car that drove by, neighbors talking to one another outside their houses. The sound of the cats and dogs in the neighborhood, and so on. And as more days went by, nothing changed. It was an extremely surreal environment that I found myself in, and I had no idea how to deal with it.
I realized that I was completely lost.
ginny8 wrote: as we get older the loneliness comes
This is something I struggle with. I have been lonely without a doubt, but no matter what I do, or how heavy my heart is, I don't think I will ever be the type to pursue someone and make the first move, so to speak. I just don't have it in me. I'm not necessarily shy, I'm just in no way forward
. And those that have spent time with me in chat understand that by now.
ginny8 wrote: this must be it for me...so we do a lot of things alone
Probably the toughest aspect I deal with on a daily basis. Almost 4 years, and I still haven't accepted living the rest of my life alone. I feel like I have so much more to share, so much more life inside of me, and after that all has happened, I'm not afraid to love the right person. Which really brings me all the way back to the point of this entire thread. I don't know her name yet, I don't know what she looks like, but I know who she is in my heart and my mind.So where are you on this big earth?